Stories, ideas, thoughts run through my head all day long. When I find myself with a quiet minute or two, driving in the car with two sleeping kids or feeding Declan in the dark of his room, the next thing I know I am writing, ‘blogging’, in my head. All these great ideas and words flowing seamlessly, without effort. But now sitting in the quiet, still house, the kids are in bed, my ‘mama chores’ are done, nothing to stop me from putting these thoughts into something coherent. However, here I am, staring at a blank computer screen…with my mind just as blank.
I guess that’s how it goes. I’m up in the morning as soon as my 4 year old little alarm clock crawls into bed with me. We snuggle for a bit until alarm clock #2 starts whining or chatting, calling his girls to come and free him from his crib. I don’t often stop much during the day. It’s busy being a single mama to 2 young kids. I keep asking myself ‘well really, why the heck are things so busy?!’. It doesn’t seem like they should be. I’m at home with them and not working outside of the house. But then I run through the list in my head…pre-school, ballet, strongstart, doctors and therapy and specialist appointments for Declan, trying to fit in 2 decent naps each day for the little one, making time for family and friends, along with all the household stuff, yadda yadda yadda. With my youngest being only 10 months old…I know things will likely get easier as he gets older and perhaps I will have more time to breathe (and maybe get rid of these perma dark circles under my eyes) or even just get some of these thoughts written down.
That is my goal anyhow.
I have been thinking about starting a blog for many months. I wrote a story about the night that Declan was born and sent it to some close friends. A very good friend encouraged me to start blogging as she loved reading the story, and as the English and literature guru that she is, she told me (and I quote) that she doesn’t like reading most of what people write, but she loved my story. I’ve been reading a handful of successful blogs consistently for a couple of years, and I’ll admit that I am a bit intimidated by the whole thing. With everything going on during the past year, it has seemed like too big of an undertaking. But I haven’t been able to get my mind to stop blogging! I recently received a message from an old friend from university. She has witnessed my little dwarfism awareness campaign on facebook, and again…I have another person encouraging me to do this whole blog thing.
So here I am. I’ve made the step. I’m not sure where it will take me, but that’s what life is about…isn’t it?